There isn’t any one way to describe myself. I can use so many words or so very little but they would never do justice to who I am. All I know is that I am constantly evolving. I sometimes make sense but more often than not, I confuse even myself. Haha. I change my mind as often as the next woman but when I am determined, I am as stubborn as any woman you know. I am currently in a limbo, career-wise and others, but I am certain about one thing: I am still alive.
There are many things I want to do and many things I can do. I want to be of service to and make a difference in the lesbian community in the Philippines but I have a few personal obstacles to overcome. I have a dream to one day make that mark in a field I am fiercely passionate about. Hopeful this global recession will ease up and things will get better so that my little lesbian project can take off.
For the meantime, this blog is something to keep me preoccupied. A few thoughts, observations, and questions that bother a Filipino lesbian like myself. It’s not much, just something for other lesbians to read and ponder on.
I’ve been a lesbian since I was 14 but have only been truly out to my family the past two years. Being out is an awesome life-changing thing. It helped me see my life in a much clearer perspective.
I have made mistakes, had my heart broken, broken other’s hearts, made difficult but right decisions, gotten through depression, and yes, bliss. While I do want to be able to correct past mistakes, and occasionally have regrets and lapses in judgment, and yes, am in a limbo, I believe I am on the path where I am meant to be. I don’t know where this road now is taking me, but I’m here for the roller coaster journey ahead — ready or not — bumps, potholes, detours and all.